This morning as I was backing my car out of the driveway a song was just starting on the radio. It was a song that reminded me of Justin because he had said something about it once. “I almost stopped believin’ once, and I bet Journey was pissed!” So I smiled, laughed at the memory of how funny my brother was, and .02 seconds later I was full on ugly crying. I cried through the entire song, up the hill, through the stop lights and into a new town, until it ended. I hadn’t had a long cry like that over Justin in quite a while.
So I started thinking, it’s been over a year and the missing him waves can be just as strong as it was the moment he was no longer in this world.
A friend’s dad recently died and he describes the void in the world as a hole he lives with where his dad used to be. I saw an author say those feelings are the cost of loving deeply, and I think that’s true too. If there wasn’t such great love there, there wouldn’t be such great pain and grief without them.
Facebook memories reminded me this morning that a year ago, a friend posted a picture on my page of an hourglass that said, “There is no timeline with grief, take all the time you need.” I like that. I don’t know if I’ll ever be “done” grieving and I definitely don’t think grief is something to “get over” or “move on” from.
But I like the language about moving forward, in spite of the grief, continuing to live around this hole where our person used to be, acknowledging their life and the sadness of their absence for as long as we need to.
Even if it’s as long as we live.
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I’m at the beginning of this journey and I liked your words, move around thus hole. It’s so true. The hole doesn’t go away
I totally agree, you learn to live with a new broken heart. I am sorry you’re going through this, Camila. Thanks for sharing here.
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Beautiful, Missi. Two and a half years into my unplanned life without my husband, I continue to realize that grief and loss are intertwined with love and life. The hole is there. For a while I walked around it. Eventually, time, courage and memories of who they were and how they loved us come together to build a bridge over the hole. All that they were and all that they meant to you becomes part of who you are without them. Blessings.
Becky, I so appreciate your thoughtful words, experienced through the toughest circumstances- thank you!